Who

I guess growing up, there have been people who've told me I'm past my years. I never really understood what that meant, but they say sometimes I'm a little too mature for my own good. Perhaps, but I'd rather not follow the trend of stupidity that teenagers seem to go down.

I know this girl and we share so many common characteristics, down to her ethnicity. It's so odd, but we've even gone through the same phases. I can see how environments truly affect the person because I've moved out of that awful influence into a better one while she had to strive and make her way through it. There was a time in my life where I believed that nothing was good enough for me. I thought life sucked and that I was "suffering" and no one understood what I was going through. Immature thoughts like that occured almost every day throughout my younger teenage years. I wish I could go back and just slap myself.

She ended up getting a shitload of tattoos and piercings to express her "pain". Now I'm usually not a person to judge because I believe everybody has a right to do whatever they feel, but going crazy defacing yourself is not something I'm going to just support. Not only are you TRULY defacing yourself, you WILL regret it in 10 years no matter what you think right now! It's downright nasty, which is why people are saying things like that. Who wants to see an inked girl running around? It's not attractive in any way, and all it does is make adults and people who are trying to hire you an impression that you're not the best person in the world.

I no longer want a tattoo, unless it's a tiny one hidden from view. But then, what's the point right?

I've gone through many phases.
I'd like to think I'm at one that I will stay at, for a long time to come.
But it's all these things put together that have made me who I am today, and yeah I'm happy for that. I've gotten to know myself a lot better for that matter & as of now, I just don't give a shit what people have to say about me. I do what I want to do, because if you really cared about me, you wouldn't be talking shit.

This summer, I want to live.

kissin u

I'm kinda super happy with the way things have been going. Everything feels perfect. Time somehow feels to have stopped. It's such an odd feeling to realize that this year is ending.

My sophomore year in high school has been the best year so far. There have definitely been many many down days, but overall, I've loved it.

I keep coming back to Blogger even though I do indeed have a Tumblr. Twitter is the most retarded thing on earth and I refuse to use it. I guess there's a reason but like. I don't know. I read something from 2 years ago when there was someone important in my life who is now gone. From time to time I like to reminisce on the things that might have been. The plans we had. The happy days.

I can't believe they're graduating. I will forever remember them as just juniors. I still feel like a freshman.. walking into the school for the first time and getting lost. Feeling pressure around from upperclassmen. Stupidity and falling for a senior. One year later I'm about to complete my sophomore year. My classes this year were so much more difficult! Oh my goodness... I like to believe I've learned a lot this year.

I will admit, I've done some pretty crazy and stupid shit this year. I sneak out a lottt. I don't want to disappoint my parents, but sometimes you need some time alone to yourself outside in a field somewhere. Just look up and make a wish on a shooting star.

I've found my 11:11.
2/12/10 :)
You mean the world and more to me.
I kinda, sorta, really love you.

So I've started to find my place in life.
I hope my junior year doesn't ruin that.