HapPy Homec0ming(:

It's homecoming day!

TGIFFFF.
:(

I've realized that the hardest thing in the world to do. Is to DIET.

D-6

Halloweeeen is near.
That means homecoming is too.

I wonder if there will be any good stories this year:)
Yay!
My Halloween will be with people I lovee=)

& starts another week.
WEEK 4. . . . . . . . .

:)

Smile
because tomorrow's gonna be a good day.

It's cooling down.
In more ways than one.

Fireflies

I'm lovin' this week!(:

Math homework, chem homework, poem.
THEN I'M DONE!

The weather is BEAUTIFUL.
It's hard to believe this is really Houston.

I can't wait for Thanksgiving.
I know what I'm thankful for.

& now, I'm going to write my heart out.

Perfection

PSAT was actually hard:(
Well, only the critical reading.
Fate Sarah haha.

Hopsital volunteering was fun too:)
I haven't had a sno cone since.. forever?
Maybe?
I don't even remember!

I wanttttttt..
to be skinny again. :(
& a higher comp sci grade.

Oh God

Why do you hate me so?
This week has been AWFUL.

I want to go to sleep.
More studying.
More. More. More.

PSAT tomorrow..


& main topic?
COMPLETELY FAILED THE COMP SCI TEST TODAY!! Oh God, I think I might have a C in that class after this test..........

I'm not going to say it because someone I don't want to see might see this.
But I'd really love to yell out the F word right now.

:)

:(

I'm pretty darn sure that the cause of my miseries is me.
Hm.

College night didn't give me any info I needed.
Mom sure did though. I think we stood at the Harvard stand for like half an hour.

This night completely just freaked me out more.
I know I have to do even more to get into the school I want.

And that's just out of my reach.

I hate school

I read a friend's blog 2 days ago.

"I mean we’re in freaking high school. By the end of the year, you guys are going to hate each others guts. That’s just the way life is, live with it. And please don’t get mad at me when I fail miserably at hiding my laughter. "

Thoughts on this one:
She's 120% right. In highschool, there's really no point in devoting yourself to someone else who you are FOR SURE not going to end up with. The odds someone will marry their highschool sweetheart is zip to none.. & even if it does, remember that the average marriage lasts about 10 years. Uh, fail much? If you met that person in highschool and stayed with them for the rest of your life, you would be so sick of seeing their face in the morning 70 years later. So why waste your life on someone else? Just a thought. & obviously this doesn't apply to EVERYONE.

I've been really down these couple of days and it's starting to show through in my grades, actions, and breakdowns. Maybe I should go get checked for bi-polar disorder.

I'm sitting here wondering if I'm dreaming or that I really am only a sophomore in high school. It feels like it's been lifetimes since we've begun learning. I wish this was Hogwarts.

Plain and simple:
MEMORIAL SUCKS

Flowers

My head screams He Loves Me.

My heart whispers No He Doesn't.

You're the only one who's got enough of me

to break my heart.

You definitely are the song I sing in the car;

& I for sure don't know why I do.

I miss the way it used to be.

The old days when nothing really mattered.

I'll be honest.

I'm a little sick of the people around.

I'm just a little tired of hearing the whining.

The complaining.

I have problems too.

& most of them are more important than

WHO YOU'RE TAKING TO HOMECOMING.

So do me a favor.

Just leave me alone.

Oh Canada

My home and native land!
I miss you so. It's been a long time.
Mom and dad have both seen you recently.

Just not me.
I remember all my friends back there.
I still remember that huge school..
I still remember Anthony:)

I remember Niagra falls hahah!
I remember Memorial University.
I remember shopping with mom and getting lost.
I remember Sharon and Bob.
I remember going to church.
I remember being Mary in the play at Christmas.
I remember cuttin down our first Christmas tree.
I remember decorating it in newspaper.
I remember the Pepsi factory field trip!!
I remember ESL..
I remember Ms. Johnson.. RIP.
I remember watching sailor moon, powerpuff girls and powerrangers in the mornings! I definitely remember building snowmen and gong sledding.. I remember that one girl who was obsessed with her princess crown. I remember snow.

And I remember that I'm a Canadian.
Wooow

Happy.

Today, I can say, has been 2 sided.

I'm so happy for a few friends that found happiness!
You guys deserve it:)

Then there's another friend.
That I love so dearly & really hope she'll find what she's looking for too.. I think we all will one day(: No hurries there. I'm always here for you.

Overall, today has been a Korean Drama day.
Elated should be a better title.



I'm going to start reading again.

I hope

I really hope this year goes by fast.
I really really hope so.

I've come to realize that my dreams are really childish.
Deep down, I know they won't happen. However, that tiny part of me that still holds onto that hope won't shut up. So I'll try.

I really should start back up on guitar, pick up drums and actually learn piano. Not sure why, I just feel like that's just something I should.

There's this girl.
I really dislike her.

I HATE MATH

I hate math with a passion.
:)

I think the PLAN test is stupid.
I hate school.






Yet I can still say I love life, why?

Let's Sing.

That's all I can do nowww.
Music will make everything right(:


At least until Friday.

You know what sucks

I feel like textbooks are becoming my life.
I hate studying. Life's a reaal bitch right now.

Yet I can't stop now.
2 more damn years after this.
Then I'm done with this shit.
It's all overrrr & done forrrrr. (:

I need to keep her happy.
This is the one and only reason.

In the process, I'm hurting myself.

Hopeless

Lost. Searching for something.
Not too sure what exactly.
I lost myself recently. Have you seen her anywhere?

There are two sides to me.
I think I may truly be bi-polar.
One side is the one everyone sees.
The other.. only the ones who don't know me.


The new week begins.
Counting down... 29 more to go.

& the rain falls

It rains at least once in everyone's life.
Remember that.


I'm not content with what's happening around me.
There are things I wish I could change, but ..
at this point, it's not my choice.
I can choose to ignore it, but it'll come back constantly.

Open your eyes.
See with your heart. & your brain that's obviously missing.
What are you doing with the best years of your life.

Wasting the one thing money can't buy back.
On people who really, honestly, don't give a shit about you.

Think.
You were born with a head for a reason.

Once in a while, I seem to lose my mind.
I think it's more like i lose sight of the goals I set for myself.
I can't do that anymore.


哦.. 对了，大家中秋节快了！：）
吃月饼啦~

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今年已经过了大半年了. 很块到了2010..
自己开始觉得有恐怖感.. 好像马上就考大学.
奇怪. 最想去的地方也就是最不想的...
到那想离开. 在这想过去. 心理永远不安.

我记得你以前叫我小雪.. 呵呵.
你到了美国了吗?

Stranger in a Strange Land

I remember that phrase from a vignette novel I read back in 5th grade. Today, I thought about what exactly it meant.

Today. October 1st, 2009 was the first time I've ever realized I'm a foreigner. Okay, yeah that sounds rather blonde of me [ no pun intended ] but it's true. I've never truly given it much thought at all. It was during 7th period. Maybe I was bored & just a little tired of school. It's the end of the day, come on. I looked around and noticed for the first time how many people in our class had blonde hair.

I guess I finally realized I stuck out like a sore thumb.
Haha. Uhm. On a day like October 1st, no other..
Happy Birthday motherland. Today is your day.

As for me, well.
I know where my viewpoints stand.
I know who I am.

But I know I should maybe do a little more digging.